I have officially queried Palisade. I have a few more to send out this week, then bunch more in a few weeks when I don’t hear from anyone yet, but whew.
Part of me wants to jump up and down like a kid in a candy store: OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYGOD!
Another part of me wants to collapse on account of birthing babies is hard, and that’s what I feel like I’ve done.
Another part of me wants to open Scrivener right now and start writing any one of the 50,000 other books floating around in my head.
But more than anything, I want to congratulate myself. I’m not a narcissist, I swear. But there are times when patting yourself on the back is fine. This is one of those times. I did it. I really, actually, finally (take that adverb haters) did it.
From day one I said I didn’t know if anyone but me would ever read the thing, but my number one goal was always to finish it. I’ve done that. I finished a book, a 98,000 (down from 105,000 mind you) word book. I can die saying I wrote a complete, polished book. Come on! That’s cool!
That was my goal and, as far as writing goes, may be my greatest life accomplishment. I hope not. But if it is, I can live with that. Happily. I’ve gone farther than most do. I climbed my Everest. I wrote a book I believe in. Now if I can find an agent who believes as much as I do, I might actually get it published one day. That’d be icing on my Everest.
Every spare minute for the past two years was focused on Palisade. When not working, spending time with hubby and kids, or doing chores, I was writing Palisade. I rarely allowed time for anything else, must to all my loved ones annoyance I’m sure. So now what?
First I probably need to tell my family and friends I love them and thank them for all their patience and support – though that’s why we have dedication pages, so never mind. Back to writing.
Some thoughts for the next project:
I need to figure out how to blog things people might want to read. I can get back to the Palisade pre-stories I started writing. Hubby and I have a cool project that combines his art and my writing, perhaps we could go there finally. Of course, Palisade 2 is in my head. I have a non Sci-Fi book idea that is near the top of my list. I’m working on a poetry project with a writing group, I can dedicate more time to. So many ideas!
This is more a journal entry than a blog – see what I mean by needing to learn what to blog about? But I feel like I’m standing between two journeys, always The Fool, and I like to document these moments.
One more time: OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYGOD!